Rebelious_Ruby's Xanga

Wednesday, June 01, 2005

Wed, 01 Jun 2005 08:31:25 GMT

ok you guys i got my other xanga up and running i know i havent kept in touch with people but bad habits you know.and my new xanga ishttp://www.xanga.com.xmyxofferxtoxyourxheart

ok you guys?

well good luck with much and leave comments so if you guys want my myspace i can give it to you.later gators!!!!!

Friday, January 21, 2005

Fri, 21 Jan 2005 01:35:38 GMT

I decided I'm getting a new xanga.I feel like I open a new chapter in my life so then I decided to get a new xanga.Look for me in your subsriptions soon.

Monday, January 17, 2005

Mon, 17 Jan 2005 21:16:47 GMT

ok.grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr................

Now I am seriously pissed.Jennifer Alaine Wooten.Yeah,I'm pissed off at you.NOT because you didnt come over to my house.That could be the last reason on my mind.It's because you have no regard for others as long as you get want you want.Dude,that was so fucked up what you did.And you know it!!!!!!!!!!!!That's what really is pissing me off.Fine you really want to know why I am mad.Fine I'll tell you even though the whole world knows.

I'm pissed at you because you put my life and britney's life in danger just because you wanted to go smoke pot.Now most people would have just done it on their own time and not when they have their friends there.It doesnt even bother me that youw anted to smoke pot because thats your business but when you started getting involved with those 2 really creepy guys who were staring us down and stuff that was enough.And then you wanted me to stay there with you and them.I THINK NOT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Don't talk about bull shit because you are so full of it.You pull alot of stunts that I can look over but thats not one.YOU act before you think of the consciouncess.And I'm just tired of trying to cover your ass at times or just trying to not get pissed about it.I really don't care any longer if you want to be friends or not.Because now you are seriously being stupid.HONESTLY.

I also do pull some risky stuff but I know how to get myself out of it.That's the difference between you and I.I can get out of trouble when I put myself into it.There's some real stupid shit that soemtimes I can't get myself out right away but I never got into a lot of trouble like for the stuff you do.Or the stuff you don't get caught.Plus I don't tell my private business to everybody in the whole world.THAT"S WHY IT"S CALL PRIVATE!!!!!

Like I said before you don't pay attention.

Judith
Mer de Noms
By A PerFect Circle

you're such an inspiration for ways that i will never ever choose to be.
oh so many ways for me to show you how your savior has abandoned you.
Thank(fuck) your god.
he did this, took all you had and left you this way.
still you pray, never stray, never taste of the fruit. never thought to question why.
it's not like you killed someone.
it's not like you drove a hateful spear into his side.
praise the one who left you broken down and paralyzed.
he did it all for you.
oh so many ways for me to show you how your dogma has abandoned you.
pray to your christ, to your god.
never taste of the fruit,
never stray, never break,
never choke on a lie,
even though he's the one who did this to you
thought to question why
it's not like you killed someone.
it's not like you drove a spiteful spear into his side.
talk to jesus christ as if he knows the reasons why he
did this all to you.
he did it all for you.

Saturday, January 15, 2005

Sat, 15 Jan 2005 00:27:19 GMT

Nothing To Lose

by BILLY TALENT

Need more friends with wings
All the angels I know
Put concrete in my veins
I’d always walk home alone
So I became lifeless
Just like my telephone

There’s nothing to lose
When no one knows your name
There’s nothing to gain
But the days don’t seem to change

Never played truth or dare
I’d have to check my mirror
To see if I’m still here
My parents had no clue
That I ate all my lunches
Alone in the bathroom

There’s nothing to lose
When no one knows your name
There’s nothing to gain
But the days don’t seem to change
There’s nothing to lose
My notebook will explain
There’s nothing to gain
And I can’t fight the pain

Teach us that it’s just a phase
When I grow up my children
Will probably do the same
Kids just love to tease
I know it put me under ground
At seventeen

There’s nothing to lose
When no one knows your name
There’s nothing to gain
But the days don’t seem to change
There’s nothing to lose
My notebook will explain
There’s nothing to gain
And I can’t fight the pain

There’s nothing to lose
When no one knows your name
There’s nothing to gain
But the days don’t seem to change
There’s nothing to lose
When no one knows your name
There’s nothing to gain
And I just died today

But it's not like you ever paid attention anyway.

Wednesday, January 12, 2005

Wed, 12 Jan 2005 02:26:38 GMT

So I'm bored and stuff.

Today was a good day.I was lifting weights in PE and I got to 95 pounds.I'm tied with Chip.I need 5 more pounds to beat him.I am so going to beat him.But lifting thos weights got me so tired.My arms feel like they are going to fall off and tomorrow is PICK YOUR PISON day (aka AB workout day)I think we are doing 100 crunches tomorrow.I'm so lazy.I know but i also have to run and I'm going to lift weights again.Try to lift 100.

So everyone was wondering what I decided to change for this new year.Well my answer. I'M CUTTING ALL MY HIAR OFF!!!!!!!!!!Not all of it but I am cutting it and probably dyeing it red/black/pinkish.My mom was talking with me about it and I told her I'm getting semi permanent so I have still have the orgignal color after a while.But I do need to cut it short because PE.I sweat so much that the end of my hair.And then with my unpredictable summer it'll be easier just to cut it off.Yeah,I'm sorry alyssa but the hair has got to go.

Liz is goign to the taste of chaos tour.She's lucky.But I know taht if the used (the band I really want to see) doesnt break up by the time I'm 17 then I can go to allt heir shows.YOu know why?Because I'm doing like Donta told me to.Pass al my class and take TC for 2 periods.TC is so going to get me money.heehee.

But i go to go.HOmework is a bitch.love yaz <3 later gator

Monday, January 10, 2005

Mon, 10 Jan 2005 21:29:58 GMT

HAWTHORNE HEIGHTS

"Ohio Is For Lovers"

Hey there,
I know it's hard to feel like I don't care at all.
Where you are and how you feel.
With these lights off as these wheels
keep rolling on and on. (and on and on and on...)
Slow things down or speed them up.
Not enough or way too much. (and on and on and on...)
How are you when I'm gone?

[Chorus:]
And I can't make it on my own.
(And I can't make it on my own.)
Because my heart is in Ohio.
So cut my wrists and black my eyes.
(Cut my wrists and black my eyes)
So I can fall asleep tonight, or die.
Because you kill me.
You know you do, you kill me well.
You like it too, and I can tell.
You never stop until my final breath is gone.

Spare me just three last words.
"I love you" is all she heard.
I'll wait for you, but I can't wait forever.

And I can't make it on my own.
(And I can't make it on my own.)
Because my heart is in Ohio.
So cut my wrists and black my eyes.
(Cut my wrists and black my eyes)
So I can fall asleep tonight, or die.
Because you kill me.
You know you do, you kill me well.
You like it too, and I can tell.
You never stop until my final breath is gone.

Today was a basic day.I had 1st period and now we have a project in that class.Photography is going to be fun.Difficult but fun.And 2nd period I think i got a b or c in her quiz.I hate that class but now i havwe to study for a test and a quiz in that class..And thrid period i know i got a good grade on that quizi have to study for a test tomorrow.$th period is p.e. and violet and i were weight ligting.I got to 55 pounds before the bell rang.I cant wait till tomorrow so Ic ans eriously do some more.I think i can at least do like 80.I think Chip got 90.But i think its really easy.The girl that were lifting were being all baby ish and were scared to go first so I went.Yeah.I got them ovaries. (hehehe.Inside joke)

And then I met Paines ex boy friend,Dexter.He's ok.I guess.No offence Paine.ANyway,dude,I was talking with Paine (like usual) and I told her I think I like Jeff and she was like "you do!and what do you meah you think?you either like him or not."But we're both huge flirts so nothing is actually really serious.You have no clue what he is really thinking.You know what I mean?Anyway,We're supposed to hang out.I mean paine,brit,jeff,justin and i.I'm so pissed.I have justin in my class now.So anything I do Justin will probably tell Jeff.Grrrrrrrr.........

So finally we got our regular lockers and I have to tell you they are really small but I got top locker so I'm all good.Marcus's locker is right below mine.LMFAO.He sits behind me in class now so today i was grabbing his leg and he was like "sexual harassment.but I like it." I was laughing my ass off!!!That's my marcus.He makes me laugh.I think the only class that will get my sad or mad is biology becuase i heard that tons of people failed it and stuff but I'm going to study.PROMISE!!!!

My bro's 18th birthday was yesterday.Now he is legally aload to by porn and go to the club.lol.I'm sorry i just had to say that.But i think he acts mroe like a 12 year old ever since he turned 18.This morning he was attempting to scare me after i woke up.I was like "dude.sleep.me.tired." and he just laughed and went back to making his breakfast.

I know I share tons of pics with some of my friends and they are always like "we see pics of your friends but I dont get to see tons of pics of you."Well I promise that probably by friday I'll get newer pics.My computer is being a jackass so I'm goign to see whats up with it so i can update the website cause I got tons of pictures that i know you like.But not of me.There's one with Donny being real emo looking.It's cute.

OMG!!!Everyone thinks I'm this little saint.I'm not.I'm the quietest out of my friends though.They can go wild sometimes.WHen brit isnt suicidal is homocidal and wild.Paine is just naturally wild and then I'm like in the back.I dont get drunk,smoke anything and I'm not like all about bos.I have a good slaight but I have that serious bad side too.YOu guys just dont know about it.I'm no angel.I'm no saint.

Saturday, January 08, 2005

Sat, 08 Jan 2005 08:34:31 GMT

Hey you guys!!!!!!!

I havent written in ages.I know but today I'm writing so wipe those tears!!!!I'm too lazy to write everything that happened all over again so I'm just going to copy it from my journal at myspace.But let me tell you what happened yesterday.Because this might make you giggle for a couple seconds because it made me and my bro giggle.

Well yesterday was friday as you guys know.ANd jen,britney,justin,jeff and I were all hangin out for a long time.Jen blew up a condom and we were throwing it around.She didnt know how to put on a condom and we were telling her and stuff.Seriosly,she just finished taking health class.And way so justin parted his way to go home which is to the right on the rail road tracks.Jen,brit,jeff and i were hangin around were jen and i susally part.There was this one girl there that was like 6 and her lil bro who was like 4 and she as being mean to him.She was telling him to shut up for no reason and stuff.ANd we were giggling and scared at the same time.SHe was really bitchy .Anyway so britney's dad picked her up from there and took her home.After a while Jen said bye to us and jeff was walking with me.It's so hilarious.He makes me laugh.So he was walking me home and we were driving in my drive way and my mom pulls int the drive way and was staring at poor Jeff.He looked so scared.ANd it wasnt the susualy stare.It was the :who are you and why are you hangin out with my daughter here kind of stare.He said hi to her then just left because he was petrified.That is hialrious as hell!!!!!But when all 5 of us were hangin out we were cuddling!!!Yes,i'm a cuddler.I love to cuddle.

My mom bought me a stuff animal.It's a monkey and its so soft and adorable.You know you love the monkey.you just want it for your own!!!!!!!!

Paine has to be one of my most surprising and best friends ever!!!! (Yes you paine!!)She picked me up this morning (we have a car.It's called our legs!)And I left my room to get my back pack from the back room and she wouldnt allow to go back to my room.And she told me to llook on my bed when i got back home.I thoguht she was just rushing me out the door like usual but when my mom and i got back from doing errands I went in my roonma nd looked on my bed and she left me presents!!!!!Isn't that sweet?!?!?!?ANd it was a bunch of stuff I like.SHe knows I love legalos from lord of the rings and she bought me a pen,key chain and poster with him on it.Not only that but she bought me black and white nail polish.awwwww.......she's so sweet!!!SHe surprises me everyday!!!I'm surprised she rmemebered I ran out of nailpolish or that i like legalos.I told her this stuff like 2 maybe 3 months ago.

Kristen got switched to my p.e. class.So now its kristen,ship and i hangin out.Kristin and i were trying to teah violet hanf games like shame,miss susie and down down baby.Violet's an only child and a loner so she didnt have people to play these games with her but it was funny as hell!Semetria and I were hangin out because her class (which is nursing) came to PE to take our vitalls.It as fun!!!I <3 my Semetria because she rocks socks!!!!

Anyway let me start pasting and crap from a couple days ago.k?\

JANUARY 6th, 2005

I had an awesome holiday break.I was at my friends,Zulema.It was kool.Shes actually my moms friend but i've known her since I was like 4.I hung out there with her 10 year old,SAmmy and her 4 her old,vaneza,and the 1 1/2 year old,sean.It was seriously stellar. We went to a hockey game on chrsitmas and saw the hockey players bashing each other around.It was awesome.I took tons of pictures.
this really hot guy named ricky was trying to teach me how to skateboard.I sucked but it was fun just hangin out with him and trading stories back and forth.He's f***ing hilarious.He sister came a couple days later like a week and a half.I was alone with the boys basically.I felt so alone.
I saw the movie "a series of unfortuanate events"It was so boring.I wanted to fall asleep.Poor Tuka.She tried to take us to a good movie but fell short of that.It was donny's fault.grrrr...i'm so going to hurt him.Tuka is brazizlian and speaks portugese,spanish and english.She's so awesome.She's a rebel.An original dare devil.She sky dives,parachutes,rides motorcycles and rollercoasters.She's really awesome.
A lot of the time Ricky,his mom and dad came to Zulema's house but it was always fun.I called vickie and was talking with her a wahile.And when i tried to talk about vickie around ricky and donny they would get comfused adn thought i was talking bout ricky.But they are kool.Rosario(ricky's mom)is so hilarious.She was making my bro and i laugh so hard.At one point i started rying from laughing so loud.
It was fun hang at Zulema's she was telling me stories about my mom and her.Like she was really younfg when my jom met her and she just got married and she didnt know how to cook and she'd come to our house crying and my mom would help her cook and fix the dinner and her husband would never know.I'm so glad she lived right across the street from us.
I got a new hoodie. (i represent those hoodies!!)lol.SO i went to school today and I have a photgraphy first period.the teacher is so weird.She freaks out if you sneeze or cough and she's really scary.And 2nd period is biology and the teacher looks like don vito.but it's killer.i have chu,jeremy and sully in that class.fun fun fun.3rd period i have world history with cheyenne and tins.4th period i got PE. blah.but its all cool.i have chip in my class and i have coach reddick (hahahaha)she's really cool.
I decided I'm going to cut my hiar but I havent decided when or what style.I love anime and I love kingdom hearts so I'll probably end up growing my hiar out some more and cuting it like riku or kairi.It'll be kool.Something that's out of the ordinary.A lil different.ANyway,I'll write mroe later.I need to cal Cynthia.

Friday, December 17, 2004

Exams are stupid ..but my day wasn't.
Current mood: aggravated

YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!Finally we get a break from school.I'm so happy.I just going to miss a couple friends and seeing people in the hallway. *sniffle*

Basically today I did my exams and then hung out with michelle,brittany,paine and her boy toy danny.It was cool.Michelle came over and was lookina t queen of the damned.She never saw it before and she was screaming at the t.v. It was hilarious. She would be screaming at the vicitms of lestat right before he even killed them she'd be screaming "get out of their!!!" and stuff.Michelle, you got to come over more often.

School was actually fun.I got tons of hugs and kisses.lol.Then we had to go outside for the bomb threat.I was out ther hangin out with Semetria and actin stupid.YOu know me.heehehee.Destiney and I were spreading our secret.If you guys don't know it yet remind me to tell you when I see you. :lol: I'm going to be gone for a while remeber.So email me and I'll try to get bacl to you guys ASAP.Or just call my cell phone.

Grrrrrr.....I found out they moved to another house and I already knew one of their teenage neighbors so I was going to be all happy now I'm like great :unhappy: Like I said befofre,Deborah I'm going to try and write at least half the notebooka nd then let you read it when we get back to school.ANd I'll start workin on your story also.

But I got to go.I'm lookin at new music videos or music videos I havent seen yet.I <3 heart shaped box by nirvana. later cuties! ¢¾

Monday, December 13, 2004

And the amusement goes on...
Current mood: amused

Hey you guys, Today was one of those unfocused,can't pay attention days.First period we were reading about king arthur but this version was stupid.Just give me the disney version or sci fi channel version and that's enough for me.Today was Natasha's birthday.She makes me laugh.She was doing a birthday dance then she pointed at me and was like "this birthday dance is for you,tatiana" and she did this hialrious dance.I couldn't stop gigling.Even Chris as laughing and he susely doesnt even talk. Second period I was in Geometry and we were taking a test.I'm so glad I made that formula sheet because Mrs.Stuart let us use it.I think I got a B on the test.I noticed soem mistakes I did after she dotted some of them.I fixed thema nd turned it back in. Thrid period we were watching a tape and I was talking with Kristen.Moses wouldn't leave me alone.He kept stabbing and poking me with a pen that I let him barrow.The irony!The project for her class is due tomrrow.I think I'm going to get a rerally good grade on it.ANd alot of the maps she gave us (8 of them) we need to have done tomorrow. :unhappy: The dreaded evil fourth period brought a substitue teacher.I'm sorry but I dont like this lady either and her eyes scary me.She's like cocked eyed with huge coke bottle glasses.I'm terrfied of her.And she's hella mean.I sat next to joshua and sully.Jackie and all of us were cracking up over stupid stuff.Like I'll meow and then Jackie will roar. Bentley,I feel so bad.I hope you feel better.You have huge bruises and sores from your car accident.ANd I hope you find a way to get your car fixed.I know you loved your car so much. Semetria came over and we were goofing around.We were tryint og et our work done but she seemed kind of nervous being here.lo.Dude,i was talking to her at school and she told me she was hungrey so i told her that I cooked yesterday and she could have soem leftovers.She looked at me and said , "I'm nto hungry anymore." That was a low blow.But when I got home and gave her some food she was eatting her lil life away.SHe said it tasted awesome so I was happy.Then I made that Kool-aid (kool aid iz da pimp!) and we were downing it like water.hehehahaha. Between halls.I was messinw ith por lil ol' D.J. He had an old boy scout t shirt on.It looked so adorable.So i was pocking him on the side and stuff.Then I was being a lil shy when my hot crush walked past. :love: He's so hawt. But I'll tell you guys about my Chrsitmas plans tomorrow.Maybe.

Anyway heres all my websites in case you guys are curious

http://www.geocities.com/varsity_vampire_writer/index.html

http://profiles.myspace.com/users/10280655

and then this xanga.

i mgiht be changing my aim sometime.I dont know but I'll add you guys to the new list.Till there's more ridiculous,stupid awful things to say.I'm Tatiana and I'm out of here!!!

Sunday, December 05, 2004

Sun, 05 Dec 2004 17:44:00 GMT

i havent written in a long time.I've been extra busy.Semester examies are coming up and it's hectic.Basically not much has happen except now theres a new kid name David. (why are there so many davids in this world) who is super kool and super cute.It'll get a miracle for him to let me take a picture of him.He's camera shy like liz.But you know me.Trouble maker EXTREME!!!!!I'll get that photo.

Anyway,I know you guys just love my profile pic.WHen you thought I couldn't get worse I just....do!!!!!Doesn't Clarissa and Dede look so funny and adorable?!?!?!?!

Yesterday I got a perm and it burn tlike hell.Gosh damn,I havent been in that much pain since way back in the day.

I also went ot the parade yesterday.OMFG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!DOUG WAS EDWARD SCISSOR HANDS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!AND HE WAS SEXY AS HELL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!My mom thought he was cute.

WARNING: NOT FOR THE VERY RELIGIOUS!!!!!!

And there was this float with Jesus near his cross in a white robe and his arm spread out.You know.the usual picture of him.ANd these 3 people dressed in black robes.they were supposed to be demons.I had this thought were one of the demons hit Jesus then Jesus pulled out a bat and started hitting the demon with it.I was laughing my ass off and I told my mom about it and she told me I was one sick puppy.THen she told my bro that he was right.I was crazy.lol.It's a float so don't take it so harshily.

But I'm really busy so I'm not going to be updating alot.Love some comments and stuff.

<3 Tati*

Wednesday, November 24, 2004

Wed, 24 Nov 2004 03:56:31 GMT

hey guys,

what's up?nothin much ehre.Just got back from lakewood,washington around 2am.I am so jet legged.I'm tired loke woah!!!anyway,it was sad but fun to go to washington.I wish it was on a different situation thou.I stayed at Teisha's house.It was fun.Causing a lil trouble and mischeviousniness.it was fun thou.

the funeral was really nice.alotof people were there.Mrs.Johnson touched so many lives!!!It's incredible!!!!!!!!!!!!I love her so much.I was terfied to look at the casket with her in it.She looked so pale,cold and almost doll like.It scared me.Everyone was crying alot.Haley was crying alot,clarissa,my mom.even josh was crying.And when i saw alexa crying I started crying too.I think thats what really got me.Thats when i really got the signal.

We went up to the burial ground and watched where she was to be buried.Because it is holy ground you are not allowed to see them bury the coffin.It sounds so mysterious almost.Shes buried close to her dad.Thats kind of sweet but also really sad.There i got a coupel pictures of the coffin and people.It was nice to see everyone.

After te funeral was the reception which was fun.I helped clean up.I'm a good girl like that.I changed from my dress into my favorite jeans and thrice shirt.I sat next to katerina,clarissa and haley.Right behind me sat alexa,sterling and their cousin.I would poke alexa then turn away.lol.i'm so immature i know but it made her laugh and thats all i care about.

After the reception I got a rife with mrs.thrasher and clarissa came over to lateisha's house.Teisha wasnt there so we decided to walk around but on our way to lake louise which was our destination honisty and teisha dreove passed.So we decided to walk back and get teisha.From there we waslked to lake louise which is painted green.I still cant believe it.It looks like the grinch stole the school.lmfao.

After that we giggled our way to jamelle allen's house.He wasnt home though.But his mom welcomed us in.She was making me laugh so hard.At first she didnt recognize me until she started talking and i told her it was me and she said i look so grown.lol.we hung out there and warmed up because outside was hella cold.she took a couple pictures and left our phone numbers there for jamelle.

Then we went home and clarissa left and we all went to sleep.Then danny came home around 12 or 1am from hangin out with his friends.i was pissed off!!!Iwas so sleepy and he just rung the doorbell like there was no care in the world.Then when I told him everyone was asleep all he said was "its still early" I wanted to beat his head till the white meat show.Grrrr....he was being an ass hole.

Then on sunday nothing really happened.Then everyihing happened.I went to mami's house which is clarissa's grandma.She is so kool.I remeber i used to go there every weekend and hang out because she is so kool and we'd swim in her pool.SHe is hilarious too.SHe got a new dog called panda because mojo died when i left.panda is really energtic.teisha,clarissa and i were all there witrh mami and josie.then mom came and we dropped teisha home because we knew we were going to be out for a long time.

We then went to alexa's house.She looked bpred.ANd i bothered her.There's an inside joke between a couple of us and if you dont know it sucks to be you.I was botherin her about the johnson vs. johnson affair.lmfao.ANd then mom,clarissa,josie,alexa and i decided to get some of the deserts left over from the reception.There was alot!!!!!!And my mom started messing with me so we started slap boxing,wrestling.and kung fu fightening.LMFAO.It made them laugh alot.I wanted to make alexa laugh.But this was my every day routine.I guess they messed my mom and i fighting.Then we convinced mr.johnson to let us take her to the tamailla's.So.....

We went to visit francine,herna,jay and their parents.we ate ice cream and where messin with them but before that we left clarisssa at mami's and then went to pick up danny.So it was a switch off.Danny was laughign with herna and i was picking on francine when i wasnt fighting with alexa.Man,alexa and me were slap boxing.She was winning for a while till I got ice cream and got a sudden boost of energy.Then i was winning.lol.

but before we visitded francine after we picked up danny we went to tabitha's house.She wasnt home but there was a note on the door that said

"Iris,

I'm at my mom's house.@ blocks up and a right turn 2nd house on the right.

Mrs.Turnbow."

lol.So we went to mrs.turnbow's house and bothered her a while.Then we went back to her house.I was laughing at tab and her birds.lol.and of course beatin up alexa.Once in a while danny jumped in and punched me a couple times.

We were supposed to get alexa back at a decent time and we basically got her home around midnight.lol.we had to suffer mr.johnson's wrath.And he was harsh.Calm but harsh.My mom and mrs.josie didnt wasnt to come inside so they were hiding behind the cars and stuff.Alexa had to get my mom and danny went with mrs.josie.lol.adults these days.Then all of us pigged out there.ANd stayed laughing.eatting and drinking till really late.Like 2am.Then we got home arounfd 2:30am.We are so bad.It was really rude but we wanted to see alexa before we left.My bro cried when he left alexa's house.Isnt that sweet?

Monday morning josie and honisty drove us to the ar port at 6am and it was freezing cold outside.I was sad to go.I still am sad i left but soemthign pissed me off.We had a flight delay for like an hour and a half.I was so ttired adn pissed off.Then on our connection we had another delay.I was pissed.

But now I',m home.Jet legged,tired and bout to go to sleep.
night you guys.

te amo

p.s.

I updated my website.Alot of pictures from lakewood,goofy,alexa and the funeral.Check it out sometime.

http://www.geocities.com/varsity_vampire_writer/index.html

p.s.s.

If you were wondering the next time I'm coming to washington.I have no clue.But I heard through the grape vine that a bird told it maybe this summer.

Tuesday, November 16, 2004

Tue, 16 Nov 2004 21:21:00 GMT

One of the worst things that can ever happen has happened.My friend has died.Mrs.Johnson died yesterday.I miss her so much.I havent seen her in 4 years.I have no clue what i am going to do.I have no clue who i am.No one really knows how much they have contributed to your life until moments like these happen.I'm glad I told her I love her the last time I talked to her.But I'm so sad I never got to say good bye.I feel so bad.Poor Alexa.Lakewood,I have a feeling I'm coming back.Sooner then I have ever thought I would be going.

This can't be real.this has to be a nightmare.Somethign no one really dreams about.This can't be real.I hope.I swear.